Ending up...
The firey debate of what to do with my life is continuing on. I still have made no decision at all. We just talked a few minutes ago and she called me because things are not going her way at the moment and I am one of the few people she can talk to without worsening her mood. I not only don't add to the fire of her mood I help to quench it. If I don't end up staying together with her as a soul mate for the rest of mylife I definitly want to keep her as one of my freinds. I will keep working on what to do but what do I do is the question that is always in my mind I will work on my plots and plans for the future so for now. I'm still working at getting a job I just finished filling out a job application for Jack in the crack and one for ACE hardware Ohh boy maybe I'm not going to end up flipping burgers Maybe I'll end up SKREWING NUTS!!
posted by Mr. Math @ 8:56 PM
WELL...
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Don't allow yourself to be manipulated! xx
Remember, indecision, is a decision. A dangerous one too cause you can trick yourself into thinking you're actually doing something when really you're justifiying doing nothing. Here's sort of what I don't understand....Regardless of if you want this young woman to be "the" one or not, you still care for her, right? And even if just as a friend you would not want harm to come to her, right? Cause, if so, I don't know how you could let her think doing drugs (especially speed which will waste you away and burn you out faster than anything - not to mention you don't even really know what you're taking in that funky little powder) is something you're willing to tolerate. If you've decided that you are better than that, you should want to be with someone who's better than that. I've gotta tell ya kid, this "soul mate" stuff ain't what it's cracked up to be. And, if you don't think us old folks here didn't learn that the hard way, you're wrong!!! We've all be to "soul mate hell" and back. Everyone who ever married thought, at some point, truly believed, they were marrying their soul mate! No kidding. Now, my husband and I have been together 10 years, we're very happy and maybe aftre 10 years of debt, unemployment, family problems, kid problems, and just scrapping our way through life together I can maybe say he's my "soul mate" but you don't claim someone's your soul mate to begin with. That's an honor you earn with someone. She's not even willing to give up the drugs for you so how could she possibly care enough about you to be your soul-mate? Sorry, this is not what soul mate is. You've got your definitions messed up. You have to love someone enough to set them free to be a soul mate. Sorry, you're a good kid and all and she's probably a great gal and many ways but don't go throwin soulmate around to those of use who've sacrificed and earned it. It's not a title you get just cause you both think the same way or like the same things or it's not about a love "feeling" you have. That's what teenagers think "soulmate" is but that's just a bunch of bullshit. It's about ACTION. It's about choices. It's about choosing to live by the same goals and morals. It's about giving things you might want to be with that person. Sacrifice. You hear? It's about sacrificing. It's about telling it like it is to the other person, from the heart, even if it hurts, even if it means you might lose them. Sorry, I may be blunt and to the point but this "soul mate" stuff..you two have it all wrong. The feelings you're having have nothing to do with being soulmates. You're following your emotions and hormones. She needs some help you are not equipped to give. YOu don't have your own life together yet. She should have been working on hers while you were gone if she wanted to make something of it when you came home. Instead, she's very needy and not willing to make changes or give anything up. Sorry kid, I love your mom and I'm very fond of you but, this isn't soulmate material you're talking about here. Could it be that someday? Sure, maybe. If you're both willing to do the work but you're not. You both don't want to roll up your sleeves, dig in, get to work and down to business of creating a real life together. I think you do but she's a long way from "getting it"
Wow Terri, you said it all and so much better than I have managed.
We love your Mom and we are very fond of you D, but we olduns know a thing or two, like Terri said we learnt the hard way....and it was hard. We don't know it all that's fer sure but we were young once too, we thought we found our soul mate too many times. Soul mate or not, no one is worth the risk your thinking of taking.
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