One more day.

Well the first weekend of the new year is drawing to a close. I haven't made any new years reselutions and don't in tend to. Life goes on. People are whack and I'm still me. I'll live on just like always I'm a little pissed at my mom right now she has no clue how to get shit done in a timely fashion. I want to get shit done so she tries to take as long as she can. We had a washing machine. It broke like so much other shit. So today I was going to go to the laundry mat which she hates doing and do all the clothes that she has been saying need to be done for three days and she says that they don't need to be done and she is going to go take a showere first. Let me remind you that this is at 1:30. She's been up for hours dicking around on the computer. Then she started in on me about how I need to get my own computer. I had the money and asked her to put a lap top on her card I'd give her the money before she ordered it. She told me to wait that I could find a better deal. Yes I probably can but I just want to get it over with and it's a good quality laptop so I'm not gonna regret it. She tells me to hurry up and then tells me to wait. What kind of bullshit is that? I'm not perfect I'm not saying that that is what I expect but shit what does she want pick one and stick with it. If I had know that it would have been this much bullshit I would have definitly tryed to get independent living set up a long time before I even thought about getting out. This is the kind of bullshit that I wanted to get cleared up before I got out and she reasured me that shye was going to help me to get everything done. I belived her. What bullshit you don't tell me something like that and then go back on it. I try to do her a favor and then she starts bitching at me. So how am I suppose to deal with this? If I try to deal with shit like a man and get stuff done all i hear is how I'm making it hard for her or I'm not doing what I'm suppose to or how I have to wait untill after I do something that I was not even responsible for. Where am I suppose to go? From here it is looking like a no win situatoin. If I do nothing at all I hear about how I should be doing something. So from where I stand it seems to me that she is not helping but hindering my every attempt to better myself or even just plain old help out. What am I to do just be her little servent that waits on her hand and foot. I'd probably still be doing something wrong or not getting something done. I though she was going to help me to get through untill I turned 18 not make me have to work just as hard to get nowhere at all. I need her help or I'm going to get nowhere at all or end up violating parole. Where should I go from here. I'm afraid that if I do sighn up for school starting this semester that I will miss days or will be forced to drop out because I can't depend on my mom to take me to school. I can't drive myself and I can't move closer. What do I do? I am about ready to just say fuck it do nothing and watch the world pass me by untill I turn 18 and get the fuck out of my curret situation. Life is a bitch!